|
|
|
|
|    
Cleverly Disquised As A Responcible Adult!!! I'm just a girl with a brain that never sleeps, it's always working nonstop. I am a survivor seeking to be a thriver, a wife, an ex-wife, a lover, a polyamorous bi-sexual, a mother, a step-mother, a daughter, a sister, a friend, an anima l & nature lover, an open adoption birth mother, an educator, a swinger, a cheater, an abused child and woman, a survivor of that and so many others, always striving not to be the abuser, I need a place to be, to put it all out there, "maybe if it's no longer inside of me it won't keep threatening the life it belongs to". This is my therapy couch. I appreciate you reading, commenting and watching. Thanks for listening or not.
         |
|
|
Sunday Night Musings-Feeling Bi
|
Posted:May 21, 2006 9:46 pm
Last Updated:Dec 21, 2010 4:43 pm
152550 Views
|
It's been another great weekend for us. Friday we stayed home. Maggie was still feeling puny and very clingy so we took her to dinner, and tucked her into bed. Which she got out of 5,678 times before she finally passed out at 6am! We think that the cough RX that should make her sleepy, makes her hyper, so fun for us. So Friday was a real late nighter! Steve and I took turns sittingup with her getting her juice movies and bribing her to let us sleep for just the hour and 15minutes it takes to watch a movie! She slept an entire 6 hours and woke up going strong! We enjoyed each other's compnay so much during her self entertainment sessions. It's good to have my rock. Lord give us energy, strenth, caffiene, sugar, to keep up with this !....
Saturday started out being pretty hectic and kind of like a well organized disaster that worked out beautifully. Steve and I didn't get much "us" time Saturday. Nobody in the house woke up before 12noon, unheard of! Normally would have been great except I was supposed to have Maggie at a 3rd Birthday Party for her best friend, who's mom also happens to be part of my pard. I think I'm going to work on coming up with relavent to fake names for our playmates so I can get more advise with out enbarrassing anyone.
Let me introduse you to "Cat". She and I have been friends for 10 years this Fall. She is a single mother and I was friends with her before, during and after her divorce, I love her to death. Unfortunately, she and I are very much alike in some ways and can drive each other nutty. So Cat being one of my best friends in the real world, called to piss in my cheerrios during what was for me the first thing in the morning, no it doesn't matter that it was really 11:30am! She knew I was still asleep when she called, she asked!! Finally got all the home fires put out and organized dropped off the to the sister-in-laws. She's so mothering and nuturing. Drop Steve and the house with a quick kiss and on the road I go.
Lady D. is a very new friend and I caution myslelf not to be too eager, too demanding, or too bold. We've been chatting for a while and truly seemed to click in many ways. We are meeting for drinks and if things click, a little shopping, I dare not wish for more.
I had a great date Saturday with a sexy lady, hereto referred to as Lady D. It was a first for me, I've never met and dated a woman, never been looking for a one on one relationship with a woman. But I sure am now, I can't wait to get in her pants We had drinks, and even ate a little to pass some time, we eagerly shopped for a thing of pleasure to share and wasted no time scheming when we could use it....lol I'm glad we waited the anticipation is going to kill me!!I was struck by the drastic difference in a date with a woman and a date with a man. I was so much more relaxed, and so very attarted. This is indeed a pretty little Pandora's Box we are opening, but I have had such fun opening others of mine, Steve's andsome of our partners. I really enjoy the chase with women, love to kiss and wish it was more acceptable to have 2 women kissing. Well given the slant of this post you might see that I am feeling very bi, very flirty, very sexy, very horny.
Steve and I have been having incredible sex and since the interviews for BF positions have ended and things are ironing out our sex life has just exploded! And he offered me a large boon today by telling me that if I wanted to forgive "PH" and give him a 2nd chance he was ok wiht that. I probably didnt' thank him enough, he takes such good care of me. We were talking tonight about next week being a pretty dry week for me other than Lady D.
Alas, my only 2 BF's are out of town for at least a week, and 1 won't be back for 2 or 3 weeks,a sigh,a pout. I have a fuck buddy I can call and probably will but what I really want right now is to bury my face on the soft grogeous tits of a fine sexy lady and enjoy being there the way I would if I could do it to myself. I want to finger, and suck every glorious inch of a hot bodied housewife. We are such a desperately good couple!!! We can hav e so much fun! I am infatuated, obviously b.c I can't get her off my mind! But it's so much fun.
As for the boytoy bieng out of town they maybe sorely dissappointed if I get a reg GF...lol I hope this all works out.
I totally forgot what point I was making? Damn hate that. I'll talk to you my sweet ka-ket! Thanks for listening. {=} LeeAnn
|
|
|
2
Comments
|
|
Open Hearts, Open Relationships, Closed Minds
|
Posted:May 19, 2006 9:19 pm
Last Updated:Aug 14, 2006 6:25 pm
147509 Views
|
Many people are here(bbwnsa.com) for many different reasons. There have been post about cheating and when is it cheating and what is cheating. There have those who have shared the pain of why they can't leave a relationship. There have been judgments passed.
Everything is not as it seems. And life is not as simple as black and white, or yes and no. Over the years I have learned a lot about life, much of it the hard way, and have come to see it very differently.
For those of you who read LeeAnn's post, you know she is the writer in the house. She has fire and passion in her soul. But she also has demons. From the day I meet her I loved her and promised I would be there for her to help fight those demons. She has shared some of them and our battles with them with you. (I have them too and trust me she is a true dragon slayer)
I was married for 20 years (I hate to speak ill of the dead but the truth matters) to a controlling, evil, abusive woman. Because I married young and dumb and had an instant family (she had one I adopted and we had another later) I missed a lot of life's little growing up fun times. I never really had the chance to explore my own sexuality. I never learned how to make my own friends and develop interest outside of those she wanted. When I begin to realize how much I hated the relationship I was in I thought of leaving. I grew up in the "model home", dad worked, mom raised the two , never heard or saw them fight or raise their voice at each other. I was taught that marriage was forever. I knew as much as I wanted to, even had a right to, I could not leave, I would not leave my sons in that position. After 2 battles over almost 3 years with cancer she died.
I vowed never to be in a committed relationship ever again, I sure as hell would not get married.
Well I meet LeeAnn and that all changed I am glad to say. She is the best thing that could have every happened to me.
We thought we had the perfect marriage. Neither one of us would say anything about some of the things that began to bother us. We now know we both suffer from different kinds of abuse, but that abuse was coming out in very strange ways.
Because we did not want to feel trapped, or held hostage to the others "happiness" we discussed how we could help our marriage.
Rule number one, be honest with each other.
Rule number two, love each other no matter what rule number one brought out.
It was hard for me to accept that she "had" to be able to have someone else. I thought whats wrong with a girls night out, a sitter, with what I do for you. Whats wrong with me? Then when I saw the intensity of our love for each other and how it grows everytime we are with someone else. I was amazed and understood that there was nothing "wrong" with me, we both needed something in our life's the other could not give.
If you truly love someone you are willing to do what ever it takes to take care of that person. It is almost this simple; try holding mud in your hand. The harder you hold it, the more of it you lose. Let go, loosen your grip and you can hold on to more of it. People and our love for them is the same way.
If I love my spouse and family, no matter how bad the situation is and I come here for my needs to be meet and the family is better for it, am I wrong?
If we decide that for our marriage to be stronger, we should have separate playmates are we damaging our relationship?
It is not always easy to have an open relationship. It takes a lot of work and communication. But if you have an open heart and true love for that person in your life you will learn to make it work. I have lost nothing and gained so much in our relationship because of my, slow but finally, willingness to have an open relationship. We know all the who and when and wheres of what is going on. We discuss needs and boundaries in the relationship. We are aware of each others needs and egos. And as strange as it sounds. As a result of the open relationship, we take care of each other first and ourselves second, when the whole time it seems like we are being greedy and taking of ourself first.
To those with closed minds, what it really means is that you have a closed heart. It is easy to judge others. It is impossible to know their plight in life. It is easy to say I love you, I care about you, I want what is best for you. If the best thing for the other person in your life was for you to leave, would you? If you care for someone, open your heart, let love guide your decisions. If you can, allow that special person in your life the freedom to grow and feel your love. To those suffering, share your love and your needs. You may be surprised at just how much that person will open their heart.
You must be true to yourself, live with yourself and love yourself before you can love anyone else.
You will please pardon my rambling, but I just felt that some folks have made some serious life issues way to simple. There is more gray in life than black and white combined. Learn to love and you will learn to live.
Steve
|
|
|
2
Comments
|
|
And the One Thing That Never Changes Is Change Itself....
|
Posted:May 18, 2006 9:42 pm
Last Updated:Feb 4, 2011 7:51 pm
147648 Views
|
And this too shall pass...So true that a state of ecstasy cannot be perpetually maintained. Minor snag on Monday when the pitiful little 3 yr old is diagnosed with strep and passed out in my lap..awww how cute, yeah for a while, till she feels better enough not to want to take her medicine, and argue with me....
Although in truth other than that, the good vibes on the home front have continued. As always I find so many things from different blogs that are so very relevant to my life.
Please forgive me and share your vast quantities on proper, citing but I thought this was a good acknowledgment of your influence.
Thanks to Mz SD for reminding me how I got here, the blessings of believing in timing, and staying strong. Similarly, Mz Honey for reminding me that both the sexes possess a multitude of imperfections, what an awesome thing when we find even friends to share our lives/loves with. Ms. Ambercrombie for reminding me that it's good to be brutally honest, blunt even and that sex in the daylight is the hottest! Mr. Seriously for reminding to keep fighting the fight, being ok.
I'm writing this as my poor neglected husband changes the sheets from his romp with a hot young lady who proudly squirts...yumm...I'm looking forward to that experience myself, soon. I've been trying to tell my wonderful husband that as in all things the longer you search the longer you will be searching, when you stop and enjoy the moment you are in things fall into your lap, literally...lol I'm thrilled for him.
I've been very lucky to get some meaningful girl friend time, and have plans for a very girly Girl's Nite Out this Saturday! The sun is out, I've been getting a few minutes a day butt naked in the glorious sun, I swear it recharges my batteries to sunbath. I love spring and summer, it's like those times of year make me feel like a twenty year old again.
Freedom is never free, but so priceless when it is freely given. We "came out" to our marriage therapist yesterday. And we were thrilled that the response was truly supportive, realistic, and helpful. It was refreshing. Again that burden lifting with the telling of some woe.
It's hard to pick a mood for this post, I'm happy, but I'm cautious, I'm thrilled but I'm wondering, I'm interested, introspective, intoxicated on the little things in life, and infuriated with the obsession of understanding the unfathomable reasons of it all. I guess over all I am thankful, grateful, and enthusiastic. I love open, caring community of friends I've found here in Blogland, and appreciate the energy it takes to keep going with the posts. It's a comforting thought to see that so many people read these and even if they don't comment, you know someone heard whatever it was you needed to say.
I'm glad that change is constant it keeps me enthralled with life. Thanks for reading, thanks for being my friends,... and the ants go marching on...
Loopy Late Night,
{=} LeeAnn
|
|
|
4
Comments
|
|
WOW! What a weekend!
|
Posted:May 14, 2006 6:08 pm
Last Updated:May 18, 2006 2:53 pm
147618 Views
|
I just woke up from a long nap, I seriously needed it! We've been celebrating all weekend, our anniversary on Friday, my best friend's graduation from college on Saturday, a hot date that night, and Mother's Day today (sunday). Wehad such an amzingly good time all weekend we didn't sleep more than 4 hours total Friday and Saturday. Yes it was that Good!
We started out Friday with Steve getting off from work early, so we could make plays for the night, my Aunt picked up our little one for the night, and the fun began! Steve cooked me a very delicious and romantic dinner, oh it was great. Nothing sexier than a man who will cook for you. He gave me a sweet card, and some beautiful jewelry for our anniversary. I showered and got all dolled up so that he could take me out and show me off for the night. We played on having a nice relaxing evening and turn in early for lots of hot sex.
We decided to go downtown to a new club that is a very upscale Martini and Cigar bar. This place is awesome, live blues or jaz band, leather sofas, and chairs scattered throughout the place, tables outside, just a wonderful atmosphere. Any of you people near Clumbus should check it out, it's called Belloo's. Tell Pat or George that LeeAnn & Steve sent you..lol We closed the place down and made LOTS of new friends. We drank and danced and partied with friends we met there and some new ones! IT was an awesome night and that was just the beginning! The Appletini's and Cosmo's were flowing like water and the people were sexy, hot and friendly!
We finally made it home around 6am and wore each other out for a few hours, took a power nap and went out for lunch to celebrate my best friends graduation. That was like old home week b/c her family and mine mom's family grew up in the same backwoods small town and most of them knew me from when I was a small but hadn't seen me since. It was fun to be able to show off, I've come a long way since they saw me last, and done great for myself.
It was a blast, and got even better. As we were leaving the graduation celebration, I got a phone call from a VERY hot friend I made here on bbwnsa.com. My own personal boytoy was finally off from work and ready to play. So we headed out to meet for drinks at another local eatery and Steve left me in C's very capable hands! We chatted and flirted and freaked a few waitresses out b/c I walked Steve out to the truck to get my bags and came back in. But when I sat down I switched sides and cuddled up with C for some heavy flirting. The looks on the faces of the bartender and our waitress when they caught us kissing and coping a feel, were priceless!
We quickly proceeded back to the hotel for some hot fun between the sheets, a nice nap, a movie and lots of laughs. I wore boytoy out, went home wore Steve out. We made a our first home movie, oh what fun. It took a few practice takes but well worth the effort. And we finally went to sleep for the night around 2am.
The whole weekend has been incredible and just got better as it went on. One of the in-laws took our for a 2nd night away, and the fun continues!
So what did you guys do for the weekend? Ever had a great weekend like this unexpectedly? Tell me about it!
|
|
|
1
comment
|
|
Happy Anniversary to Us!
|
Posted:May 12, 2006 7:10 am
Last Updated:May 21, 2006 12:07 am
148887 Views
|
Well as the ever wise and sexy Purry said; "Today is a new Day!" Indeed thanks for reminding me of that. My wonderful husband always tells me this when I'm down. "When you are worried about yesterday or tomorrow, ask yourself what is wrong with this moment!" Well since he's having a rough day today, I'll remind him of that.
Today is our 5th Anniversary. I'm amazed! I never figured I'd be married at all never mind have what most people see as a perfect marriage. Well it isn't perfect but it is great for us both. Never in my life did I see myself as a stay-at-home mom, wife, and full-time graduate student. So today I want to thank my husband for 5 wonderful years and hopefully many years to come.
Like all couples we've had our ups and downs, but we always seem to work our way through. We've been on this site & in the lifestyle for several years. We didn't start out having an open marriage, initially we only wanted to add a bi-female, then we moved to swapping, partial then full, and then this year we decided to go to the open marriage. We're still adjusting to parts of it, but I hope that he thinks it's as good a thing as I do.
So to the greatest husband in the world I say Thank You! Thank you for loving me, like no other man can, for accepting me like no other person ever has, for caring for me when I don't want to be cared for, loving me when I feel unlovable, giving me freedom when your soul screams out to hold on tight, encouraging me to dream big, standing by my side when I can't stand myself, and just being yourself. It's been an awesome journey and it's getting better everyday! All my love, LA
Hope everybody has a great day and weekend! This will be my last blog for the week because we have a very busy weekend. Today's our anniversary, tomorrow is my best friend's college graduation, and Sunday is Mother's day. Happy Mother's day to all you great ladies on here. I feel such a kinship with so many of you. Thanks for accepting me into blogland. It's so nice to be accepted and loved. We can be sexy, sensual women, great mom's, wives, GF's, sisters, daughters, and friends here without giving up our sexuality. So what do you guys and gals have planned for the weekend? Whateve it is have a great one!
|
|
|
2
Comments
|
|
Tired of this life
|
Posted:May 11, 2006 12:20 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2013 7:58 pm
153490 Views
|
I'm so very tired of this life.
Tired of the lies, the liar, the games and the players.
Tired of the people who need me, who want me, and then the ones that don't.
Tired of my needy husband, , family and friends.
Tired of being asked for my advise only to be told I don't know what I'm talking about.
Tired of biting my tongue not to tell those same idiots, "I told you so"!
Tired of this dirty house, that never gets clean.
Tired of the bills I can't pay, that just keep piling up.
Tired of the phone ringing with people I don't want to talk to.
Tired of the sob stories, when I have so many of my own that I want to choke.
Tired of my in-laws who see the world through rose colored glasses, and help everybody else before their own .
Tired of my mom mourning a who dies 10years ago at 16, when she has 2 daughters and 2 granddaughters who need her.
Tired of my father and his bi-polar non-medicated rollercoasters that I spent my life getting off of.
Tired of the basic unfairness of life.
Tired of being the cargiver instead of the cared for.
Tired of the games some of my lovers seem to want to play.
Tired of my lovers who work so much I don't see them for weeks.
Tired of the guilt I feel that I have lovers to choose from when my husband can't find one regular lay.
Tired of the neighbors who yell and scream and put their vehicles in my way.
Tired of the rain and the depression if brings.
Tired of never being satisfied, always wanting more.
Tired of looking backwards to be sure I'm going forward.
Tired of wishing I could make a difference.
Tired of wanting all those things I can't have.
Tired of waiting, wondering, watching life go by one day at a time.
And then tomorrow or the next day something will energize me, and I'll be thrilled.
Thrilled that I have the life I live.
Thrilled at the things my 3 year old says to me, the new things she can do.
Thrilled at the love my husband never ceases to give me.
Thrilled at the amazing way my lovers make me feel.
What energizes you guys?
What gets you up when you're feeling down?
Thanks for listening. LA
 |
|
|
5
Comments
|
|
What if the Hokie Pokie really is what it's all about?
|
Posted:May 7, 2006 8:12 am
Last Updated:May 19, 2006 8:08 pm
148237 Views
|
I had to stop and laugh for a while at that one. And then I thought about it! Yeah that's me always over ananlyzing everything, but maybe it is just that simple. Maybe all the up tight idiots in the world just need to get together in a big room and do the hokie pokie for a while. Who can stay mad when you're doing that silly dance? Of course eventually I related it to sex. If everyone was getting what they needed in the bedroom how much better would life be for everyone. We've met some great people on bbwnsa.com and some not so great (but that's another blog..haha). I just don't think that humans are biologically programmed for monogmamy so why fight it, just be honest up front and we'll all have good time.
|
|
|
2
Comments
|
|
To link to this blog (PurplePeach72) use [blog PurplePeach72] in your messages.
|
|
|
| Sun |
Mon |
Tue |
Wed |
Thu |
Fri |
Sat |
| |
|
|
1
|
21
|
3
|
4
|
5
|
6
|
7
|
8
|
9
|
10
|
11
|
12
|
13
|
14
|
15
|
16
|
17
|
18
|
19
|
20
|
21
|
22
|
23
|
24
|
25
|
26
|
27
|
28
|
29
|
30
|
31
|
|
Most Recent Comments by Others
| Spring Fever Update (21) | QUEENKETURAH
Sep 17, 2020 12:51 pm |
| Mirror, Mirror (14) | openguy4kink
Aug 6, 2020 4:42 pm |
| Mammory Monday - Our Fuckfest Resumes (15) | niceguy86_11
Jan 6, 2020 11:35 am |
| Happy Birthday Sexy Mrs. S (4) | topherific
Dec 4, 2019 3:44 pm |
| Purple Peach returns home! (11) | NJGUY08090
Nov 24, 2019 5:50 pm |
| I’m Not Dead Yet! & Early HNW (9) | moha440
Oct 15, 2019 2:16 pm |
| Lessons Relearning (10) | Dtts43rt35
Aug 24, 2018 11:01 am |
| Late HNW Early Fuck You Friday (16) | OHFun2018
Feb 22, 2018 1:23 pm |
| Wishing and Hoping (12) | caribeanstudslut
Jun 17, 2017 4:09 am |
| Summer's End (17) | Like2Watch8101
Oct 14, 2016 5:15 am |
| Building Team LA’s O’s & Joining the Cougar Club (10) | rm_italian8iron
Aug 7, 2016 12:44 pm |
|
|
